my sweet addi b
its funny the “title” five year old seemed to instantly turn you into a girl, not a little girl, not a baby, not a toddler but a girl…and a GIRL that someday will be leaving me. I tried to be strong today and swore if daddy let me boo’hoo about it yesterday than today there would be no tears…well…i guess i lied. I layed next to you on the couch for what seemed like an eternity and only a few seconds all at the same time and watched you sleep lastnight, knowing full well there was nothing i could do to stop it, nothing i could do to ensure you would still be four when you woke up this morning. I twirled your hair, to give you a break because afterall you DO still twirl your hair in your sleep, i counted your freckles ( i lost count after 22 thru mommy tears), i giggled at your blonde tipped eyelashes that seemed almost nonexistant in the twinkle of the christmas tree lights. unfortunatly, you got those from me, and baby, we are just the kind of girls who will always desperately need to wear mascara, and hey there’s no shame in that:)….but despite all of this it still happened…we all fell asleep and…
this morning ,
woke up in all your “super happy morning person-ness”, the most bright eyed and bushytailed FIVE YEAR OLD THERE EVER WAS!!!! I thank God everyday that five years ago today, on a very cold december day very much like today, you came into this world and were handed over to me! I could never have imagined the squished nose, very long and skinny little thang would become…well would become YOU!
i truly can not sum you up in one word, or two or heck even ten, you my dear require a book. There is so much of you that i truly believe has to be reminenscent of me and how i was as a…girl…Your lanky long legs, your typical first-child-type-a personality, your innate desire to be praised when you do something so right and even down to the fact that you will seriously erase through paper until you get that A juuuuust right ( i may or may not admit to this later so take it while you can, take it while you can). But then there is so much of you that is so much more than i ever could have dreamed to be myself. Your honest and true compassion for others truly breaks my heart with pride. You my dear daughter can almost always be heard before you are seen, typically singing anything and everything that comes to your mind. Meeting new people, any and everywhere, is a thrill for you, you love and i mean L-OVE chatting it up with anyone, adults, teenagers, kids, it really doesnt matter as long as i am close by…oh and when i say “chatting it up” i mean YOU do the talking, and they do the listening! Those long lanky legs and my genes combine to sometimes make you a little on the clumsy side but what you lack in catlike reflexes you more than make up for in razzle dazzle performance!
while i am “pulling a mommy moment” i will admit i am so very excited about what this year will have in store for you…starting kindergarten, learning to read, and even tying your shoes!
happy birthday, my sweet BIG girl…i say it every year but you will always be the one that made me a mommy and that is the best gift i have ever been given.
i love you to the moon and back my baby/big girl!